Starting over

My journey starts today, I'm transitioning from male to female now. No more procrastinating, caring what people think, drowning myself in sorrows. Time is always moving at a steady pace and I don't want to get left behind. All my life I've been unhappy with who I was and and mad at the person I wanted to be. I'm excepting the things I cannot change and just going with the flow of  life. I'm happy i'm becoming the person I always felt I was. As I looked in the mirror as Devon my eyes were so dead and lost with confusion and now when I look in the mirror my eyes have so much and meaning. I look at myself and say "wow, you really did it, you said what you wanted to do and fucking did it!" It's only the best to come, I know there will be struggle but that's what makes it sweeter.  The struggle and all the hard work makes you want it more, it builds your drive to want to be a better you; it's humbling. I'm on a journey of finding myself, letting go of the past, and saying hello to my future, because that is what awaits not the past. I'm happy with myself and content, I also know it has just begun as Zoe.

Me and my fucking best friend forever.

                                                       
Spending time with my bestie I always enjoy her company, when i'm with her I feel as if I can let my hair and be me and truly be accepted. Were growing up moving on in life but we will remain as close as we are now, We seriously laughed at this for like 15min. straight, this is why I freakin love her haha.

Is it worth it?

The question I ask myself frequently is it worth it. All this pain and suffering I have to endure to be recognized as a monster, a freak, an abomination? Is it really worth it? Is it worth it judging someone who lives a different lifestyle than you? Is it worth it smiling in ones face a and laughing at his shadow? Is it worth it to aspire to be greater? Is it worth it to dream a dream that will unlikely happen? I think it is, this little bit of hope feeds a nation, The desire to want better, to have a sense of stability with your self. To have a still moment, even if it's just a second to have a clear thought. It's worth it to live out your dream because it inspires another, and as their inspiration becomes reality it then spreads. So it's worth it we all are wishing on a dream to come true it's up to how real the dream will become.